He called me at 12 midnight in tears making me cry, because he was telling me how much he loved me. He said that he told the gang at the church that God had been working in our lives. He also told the guys at church that I had Bi-Polar which I am not cool with. I don't like that one bit but can't help it now. Now I could be faced with judgement. I spoke with the youth pastor and he told me how much they loved my son and how special he was to them and what a great kid he was. I was just crying when I got off the phone. I couldn't help it I just was so moved and felt so overwhelmed with emotions that I could not help it. He is becoming so mature and grown up. I am so proud even if he did blow my cover lol. I didn't want people to know at all but what can you do ?
I dunno it's rough trying to keep it a secret from people at church because, well people with Bi-Polar do crazy shit like shoot up schools and kill people right ? No I home school my son and take care of my little family and love them I just know what they show on the news. All the crazy people with Bi-Polar which is unfair for crying out loud ! I don't like it one bit. I don't understand it at all they never show normal people that have it, rather that function people with normally. I can understand showing people that have it being posted on the news doing crazy stuff but they never show people being healthy with it . Functioning normally and raising a family and growing old with their spouses. I think it's stupid the way society treats us like crazed lunatics waiting to go crazy and do something dsyfunctional at any minute. It is ridiculous. I wish things would change but I know they won't.
I hope one day to set new standards for people with Bi-Polar as I do better, I wish to see a home for people one day that can set free those depressed and down trodden and maybe a farm for the homeless. My friend and I were talking about it having a piece of land and using it for the homeless and letting them work it and live there . It would be a beautiful thing for everyone, to have everyone working the farm and living in harmony. I am not sure it would happen or will happen but if it does we are going to name it after our mothers Marilyn (hers)and Renate' (mine) Harvest House or something of the sort. My dog is on my chest now and kissing me, he loves me so! I really appreciate it.
I am sorta kinda watching Inception which is pretty good. I am not much of a t.v. person though I am a reader and outside person and it is really foggy today. I wish it was sunny but it's not. I have housework to do but would rather sit on my butt and do nothing I will probably do some cleaning in a little while and make some meatballs.
I have had a peaceful morning other that getting a little bothered because my son told them about my Bi-Polar.... but oh hell what can I do I can't change what I am right ? I am just me and I take my meds. I go to my shrink and my therapist and so I do everything to stay healthy.
Thats all that I can do every day of my life.
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