She is an AMAZING woman ! I am so thrilled to have met with her ! She cleansed me of a LOT of stuff and helped me and prayed over my house biproxy to cleanse my house of portals and spirits. I have one left the guy that had the motorcycle accident. He is still here, he let his presence be known by changing the radio station yesterday. Dusty has moved on to Heaven, she oddly enough saw him as a German Shepard and I guess that is because he had such a strong spirit. I don't think it was because he was killed by them at all. I feel a hundred percent better ! She cleansed me of bad memories and oddly enough one got triggered by my friends son and I didn't over react which is normal for me. I have a tendancy to do that. Usually that is my normal when I get triggered or something from my past comes up. I went Saturday ready for my new spiritual path to begin and for direction and she cleansed me and sent me with a New Angelic team and I am so much clearer now it is amazing. For those of you who aren't aware of it. You each have a team of Angels and Spirit Guides that work with you. Bargin Helpers and all sorts of helpers and you can call on them for EVERYTHING. There is a really good book (look it up it is by Sonia Choquette) I can't remember the exact name but it is something to the effect of "Communicating with your Guides " . I have asked for instance my bargain Angels to help me find bargains say for instance at Christmas and found the most outrageous presents for my daughter at little to no cost that went perfectly with what I had bought her at another store ! It is amazing what they are ready to do for you ! They are so ready to help and love us so much and all they want is a thank you or some candles lit or flowers for gratitude. That is all. It is amazing how I recieve messages through tarot cards and interpt them but a lot of people would say this is witchcraft but it isn't I look up Bible verses too I just "get them" from God. It goes with whatever I have gotten in the reading and it comforts whomever I have done the reading for. It helps them. It is a blessing. I got prayers from the lady too to do everyday and one for my pets and my house and there are pet angels too did you know that.
I personally believe Dusty went to my smallest puppy Buddy and told him I loved nose kisses because he gives them to me now and he also told him how much I needed his love. Buddy hangs around me a lot more than he used to. He used to only be around my daughter. It hurt my feelings. Up until Saturday I wasn't sure if I wanted Dusty to move on and I decided it wasnt fair for Dusty to stick around on this earth on account of me but he needed to go to heaven and enjoy his new life and not worry about us anymore. I haven't been able to get on the computer and blog I have been so upset. I have been cursing and hating my neighbors and had to get before God and ask for forgiveness. I went to church last Wednesday and the message was about Jesus' Sermon on The Mount. Praying for Your Neighbors ....I realized that those dogs are Millie's baby's and if something happened to them she would be crushed and so I am praying for their safety and that their hearts will change and that they won't hurt anyone. I pray for her that she will understand what she did hurt me, and I pray for my across the street neighbor that when she drinks and drives that she will get pulled over before she kills anyone. I pray for her that she will not make me mad or angry I don't care for her because she started trouble for me and my family and I don't trust her but I can't hold a grudge so I have to pray. Praying will keep me from hating. It keeps me from being mean and spiteful and calling names and wishing evil on people. I have God to lean on and he loves my family my sweet little family dearly.
My goodness it is a hard row to hoe. My son and I got into it. On Tuesday it was TERRIBLE ! I had been taking 2 pristiqs to keep my depression at bay and was being a witch with a b. ( Really trying not to curse here) .... new thing. And was on the phone with a girlfriend and he called me abusive. Yes I have been rough with him in the past but NEVER ABUSIVE .... and he has been throwing stuff up in my face lately. I lost it and started yelling and screaming all the stuff that I had gone through as a child (after I had hung up on her) . I was furious. I then went to the kitchen because I was so angry and got a coffee cup and threw it at the counter and tried to get it to break. It didn't to my dismay. I then went outside to smoke. I later got my cell phone and called her back outside. What I didn't know was he went into the attic and was listening. .... I was so ANGRY an MAD and furious that I just started spouting off stuff. I said to her, if I had any balls I would tell him that blank (name) is not his real dad because he is SO INCREDIBLY disrespectful to him and I am tired of it they argue all the blank time and I am tired of it . They fight like cats and dogs and I hate it and I am tired of being put in the middle all the blank time and they need to stop and maybe if he knew he would act like he loved him. My husband found out I was pregnant right after he met me and NEVER LEFT MY SIDE ...never. end of story. That night I was outside with my son and saw the attic lights on and said "How did the attic lights get on?, I have to get up there and turn them off..." and he said to me " Mom I kinda figured it out about a week ago, but I heard you talking to (name) today and it confirmed it." I fell apart. I said do you think I am a slut ? I know who it was his name what Charlie and we only did it twice. I told him if it was my first husband he was a terrible man and I don't want him to EVER meet him. He said he believes me and doesn't want to. Maybe one day he will change his mind but for now he is good. He is in a lot of turmoil on the inside maybe I don't know but he went to my husband and they cried together we three did and hugged and it made us all closer and he told him he would NEVER change dads in the whole world and he was sorry for being disrespecful to him. I have a sticker on my husbands car " anyone can be a father it takes a real man to be a dad " and that is the God's honest truth. I was always worried that if I went back to Texas that some jerk in my family would tell my son that my husband wasn't his bio dad and it would break his heart. He had already figured it out. His hair is blonde and my husbands is almost blacks. My husband had chocolate brown eyes my son has my eyes or rather mine, and my nose too, he is beautiful just gorgeous. So handsome and tall and strong he is going to be so good looking when he gets older a really ladies man lol. I just know it, not to mention he has a sweet soul. And the spiritual gifts that I do but don't tell him I told you that. lol He would get so angry.It is nice to have the cat out of the bag though because now no one can hurt us ! HA on them .
To get back to my visit with the psychic it went very well , I recieved the gift of the Holy Spirit which makes me able to speak in tongues but I am having a tongue tied time trying a few things have come out . I guess I am a little afraid not of God but just letting go. It might be sounding silly or something I don't really understand it is unusual to me and not normal so I am going to have to grow in my comfort and make it normal and second nature. I need to practice because when you are a healer speaking in tongues is VITAL to the healing process. (even in your head). I must practice. I don't meditate, so maybe that can be my meditation. The lady said in a former life I turned to the dark side and I used dark witchcraft to hex people and stuff and so my abilities in this life had been blocked so she asked my debt be repaid and for my abilities to be restored thankfully I have them back she said. The angels and God are very forgiving.
This is what she said I was a PSYCHIC HEALER AND MY MISSION WAS TO SPREAD LOVE
I want more than anything to help others.
I want to have a gentle and quiet spirit and to stop yelling and be sweet to my kids instead of raising my voice at them. My friend Billy the one that I had the falling out with a while back was telling me how my son acted out when he doesn't get his way. He has OCD really bad she just doesn't understand him. He likes to sit on the certain side of the car and doesn't like pillow cases on his pillows and has to use covers a certain way if it was up to him he wouldn't even have a sheet on his bed . He has to have a fan even in the dead of winter. It has to be cold for him. We spent the night with Billy and I was so emotionally exhausted I had to stay away from her all weekend. Her son showed my son a picture on the internet of a homeless man with maggots (a trigger will explain) on youtube. I was very upset. I talked to her about it He PUT ME ON SPEAKER PHONE when I was telling her WHY it upset me .... it upset me because when I lived with Leska. The demonic woman that she was she had purchased a VERY sick lamb full with maggots crawling in and out of its skin she made me and I mean made me feed it a bottle of milk while it was dying. It ended up dying behind the garage apartment she didn't even take it to the vet it just laid back there bellowing for its mother. Had I not specifically asked for that memory to be removed at my session with the psychic I think I would have been livid with Billy's son. He looks at the 'Good Lord knows what on the internet and I told him NO MORE with my son. NO MORE interet for him and my son. I don't want him pulling up porn or who knows what and showing it to him you never know these days. I am not saying that he does but my son has a VERY tender heart and did not think that was funny and a very tender stomach and he was ready to puke.
I don't think him and Daniel get along because they are on different levels. My son takes meds for ADD and it calms him. I think the other little boy needs meds for ADD and doesn't get them because he is so hyper. I don't think he is a bad kid or anything but he is VERY SAD and his grandma just died and the memory of her suffering is ever present in his mind and he is having trouble getting over it. He is angry and that is how depression shows up but his parents won't listen to me. I tried telling his mom that is how my son acted when he was depressed and messed up but she won't hear me and he saw his grandma waste away and it hurt him and his dad goes there to her house a lot and it bothers him and he says he sees and hears things and he is scared of the dark. He is a lonely kid and hates school bullied like a lot of kids. Kids are so mean nowadays ! They stink. I enrolled my son for the charter school 6 days too late like a dork maybe he will get in but if not I will be home schooling him next year with my daughter no problem. I don't care. I am doing it. I am going to if it kills me. I am doing that and taking the class for the psychic stuff on Tuesday nights from 7-9 it is 45 minutes there and back so I will be tired but it is once a week and for 4 months at $125 I can't wait it even teaches you how to protect yourself. That is what I need.
The psychic lady blocked my empath powers for now which is good they were too strong anyway and getting in the way of life and especially with the spirits I could tell what was going on with them so much that they were attached to me. She helped most of them move on she saw John the cowboy and the little girl and Dusty as a German Shepard. I still think that is strange but a powerful sign. My son is doing school right now as I write this just so you know. I just couldn't type for awhile.
When I went to a night with the angels it was so hard. Dusty gave me a message "it was not my fault, that he loved me and that he wanted me to move on and that he was with me." I cried like a baby. I also found out in a former life I had been a writer. I could not relay that message on here though .That night my son heard Dusty bark a protective bark in the front yard. I see a lot of the good charectaristics in the little Buddy his white spot on the top of his head and his sweetness and his cuddling and his kisses and his talking, he is a talker, he doesn't growl though. Bella she will bite in a heartbeat and growl you have to be careful I think that is why they got rid of her she is really a snappy person. Definately chihuahua breed. I see the chihuahua in ehr but she knows bette than to bite me because I will get her. She has bit me before if I kiss her on the face but I don't do that anymore. I know better. I know for sure she doesn't like it. I just put her butt in the cage. She does well in there. It is amazing she just goes right in.
Billy is blasting me out of the water right now, for not putting up with Daniel and his crap, he says and does things. I am so sorry for being rude and cursing and not doing the right thing God please forgive me. I have done wrong. She is bawling me out right now. I am on the phone with her now and listening to her about all the ugly things I have done wrong. I am so sorry for not understanding exactly what I am supposed to do. I told Daniel he was being mouthy on Wednesday (which he was ) he made his mom cry and now she tells me that my kids are all fragile and I am giving him low self-esteem for telling him not to do "this and that " around my kids. I have a bad feeling about Daniel. I was in the car with him on Friday, and he said some chic wanted to "do him" in front of my son or rather when my son was in the back seat. I told him I didn't need to hear that. He also proceeded to tell me that in Erwin his cousin smoked pot in an enclosed room. I don't trust the kid there is something about him that is off. I can't put my finger on it. I can't I can read people and he is off for sure. I don't care what anyone says he is the kind of person that would hurt you on purpose and say it was an accident. Billy will always make excuses for him she is a helicopter parent. I parent I know my kids I know they get on peoples nerves and they are sheltered I don't care. I have cursed in front of them yes. I am have stopped too. Billy threw it up in my face she was being SO ugly to me. It hurt so bad. Like she is so perfect. Her kid is not perfect at all. He is kiniving or however you spell it. I know it. He was talking about how to poison the dogs when I was mad at them or throwing a coke on Anne's car he is devious. I would NEVER DO ANYTHING to anyone in this neighborhood. She says I have an illness, I am sick and she is sick and we were never supposed to be friends and that people in the hospital are never supposed to be friends . This all started because I didn't want Daniel showing Topher stuff from youtube. I don't care I have to set boundaries. I don't want Daniel pulling up porn and showing it to my son who knows what that kid looks at. He watches scary movies. He looks at scary stuff on t.v. and I don't like it. He like excorsisms and stuff like that. That stuff is real not to joke about. He is just a weirdo. I have tried I am going to drop and distance myself from this relationship for sure it is not good. I told her that if I would have known if she was not going to take that puppy (she lied and said she was going to the vet) to the vet I would have NEVER taken her and Daniel to get him. He is an awful dog anyway. He is so mean. He bites and chews. I told her NEVER to bring him over here again. I don't want him spreading his germs. She leaves Rowdy her poodle outside to rot since she got that stupid puppy like it was nothing. Her husband William treats me like I am a child and talks down to me and when my husband was coming over to get medication from her house he left so he wouldn't have to meet him how rude is that ? I think they think we are better than them or something. I don't though. I told her I am just a regular person that is up to my eyeballs in debt. She doesn't believe me and she made me cry today. I hope she is happy. She said I brought her down she blamed me but I don't believe that I am NOT owning that. I won't her son is being rude and hateful and I didn't start it and I hardly see her I haven't even been around her .I spent one night with her. My kids spent the day with her.
I asked her if it would be o.k.and she said yes , if it wasn't ok then she should have said NO. Plain and simple. That is all. I don't like the way she talked to me at all but I took it. She said she wasn't going to take anymore comments about but on Saturday I didn't even make any when Daniel purposely slammed the door closed on my daughter and she freaked out I just hugged her and loved on her and said "he didn't know" and didn't get mad at him. I packed up my stuff and left, and was glad to do so. I wanted to help her clean up but she wouldn't have it even though she woke me up at 3 am. I wanted my husband to take me to the psychic because it was so far away and it was rainey and I didn't want to get lost even with my GPS.
I am tired of fighting with her. I am tired of having relationships. She said she knows why I don't have friends. I have a few but I just don't like it when my kids get beat up or picked on or exposed to trash on the internet. I can't help it if I have standards. Yes I have cursed but I don't pull up crap and show it to them and say look at me.... and think it is funny. It was gross what Daniel did and uncalled for and if his mother knew the other stuff that he said to me well number one she wouldn't believe it he would lie one me and she would be furious. She is going to "PROTECT HER SON" by doing so he will probably end up on drugs in jail and arrested. She is on my poop list right now so he better NOT call me today and try to make friendly. I also have to say this I am not interested in hearing all his problems I have a son of my own. I will refer him to his mother.
I am tired of people talking to me anyway they think they can just to make a point it hurt my feelings. She was really rude and didn't need to be that way I was being a good listener..
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