I think we live in a lonely world

A world of silence is one with with bi-polar. You can't really talk about it because it is such a no no taboo topic with so many people ... it is so stupid.   I don't think it is fair but what is right ?  It is like you have to keep your moods to yourself or else you are to be judged by others and by god if you feel suicidal or depressed or lonely shame on you.  We have no one to go to except the maybe 15 minutes with our shrink if that and if we are lucky enough to have health insurance to go to a counselor that we like to talk over our sometimes overdramatic emotions that rule us.  I know for me it sometimes does not make any sense. The lonliness engulfs me and then I have no one but my chihuaha to calm my nerves. Our medicine is to blame if we get out of sorts " did you take your medicine?" I hate fucking hearing that one..... it grates my everloving nerves.  That one is for the birds.  Yes a world of silence and personally I am sick of it. Why is it that we are called the abnormal ones with all the problems ? When did I get so labeled to be a freak ? I am tiring of it. I want friends that understand and I don't know if I will ever have anyone that can ever accept the whole tattooed, smoking, me that I am; but I am definately not a soccer mom.