Without a support system you feel extremely alone, even when my husband and I married my supposed extended family was not interested in being supportive. The response was " you have been married before so what is the big deal " . We ended up in Las Vegas and that was our wedding -alone we had fun but I would have loved to have someone there to walk me down the isle or something . My best friend who is a cake designer made me a cake and it was gorgeous, we had that at grandma's house with a few people but it was not a big deal not like the party I had with the ass I was married to the first time. What a shame that my husband never got to experience the fun of feeling popular like he should have. He really is a super guy, it was sad -someone even asked him " why do you want to marry her? That really hurt. I have not ever understood why she said that or butted in my marriage like that. We have no one, not friends here or family and so you know you just have to suck it up and make do. I have found that even having friends over for my kids is difficult - I don't know it's like we have been black balled LOL. My son asked two friends from school and neither are coming over this weekend so it is us . I am going to make this weekend fun darnit ! Who needs 'em ? I don't I 'll now be able to walk around in my gown and be happy yay ! Not putting on heirs and acting a certain way and having to lock up my chihuaha. Who cares I don't ~ tired of people judging me for what they think I should be and not accepting me for who I am !
I may have met someone to do the coffee thing with we shall see ? Not sure, put a platonic ad on craigs list for local coffee drinker no funny business. We shall see . She sounds nice enough. I am hoping so. It would be good to make a new aquaintance.
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