Well after being blown out of the water by Billie for to her being critical of her son Daniel, I apologized from the bottom of my heart and even cried about it. She proceeded to tell me what a rotten friend I had been to her ( I am NOT a mean sprited person so I don't accept or own that either) ... and that I have "problems" that she recognizes and that should be dealt with. Now, mind you I am in therapy -she is not , I take my medicine EVERY day- she does not ... I don't know why she is judging me for things that she herself is irresponsible for and feels so self righteous. I am going to stand up for what I believe in protecting my children. My tdoc called it being a shark, I am being a shark right now but a smart one I am not telling Billie what went on what Daniel said or did or what went on when he was in Erwin (his cousin smoked pot around him) and all the other crap that he said and did around my kids she wouldn't listen anyway... so I am going to just stay away from her! That is the smartest thing that I can do. When I informed her that I would no longer be going to church with her she informed me that " you need to hear the truth" well that is 'her truth' and not mine. I am not exposing my kids to her crap or being talked down to anymore. She hates me right now and is very ugly to me. I am not putting up with it, she told me I carry my feelings on my sleeve and that I am sick (she usually brings that up) and I well I don't need to hear that crap. I have been out of the hospital almost a year now I think in March or April it will be a year and my meds are doing really well so I am not in the mood to hear someone tell me just how awful I am. I am not an awful person. I love people until they push me to the brink and her son did that he was extremely confrontational and abrupt with me and then he befriended me and tried to 'talk to me' and then stirred up a bunch of crap with his mom because of what was said between us. I don't need it. If she knew that I was a healer or psychic she would call me evil or something .... She didn't even believe me when I told her my mother practiced witchcraft. That stuff is really real. The dark arts are real and you should NEVER mess with them. She said people can't be possessed and she watches all kinds of scary movies like they are nothing and claims to be a christian but the way she acts she really isn't she doesn't have the spirit of love or of forgiveness in her heart. I know it I have seen it for myself. It is obvious Jesus said " you will know them by their fruits" she isn't bearing good fruit. I asked for forgivness and she won't forgive me and so phooey on her. That is all I have to say.
I had an amazing experience with healing ... my son bumped his head on the cabinet while drinking something and got a lump and I laid hands on him and could literally feel the energy pass through my hands it was amazing. It has really gotten stronger . I wonder how much stronger it will get as I get older. I keep cleaning out my spirit and asking for forgiveness and it is just amazing and you know what it is so healing . I know i make mistakes and want to heal others . I told my therapist how I have the gift of sight and can see people's husbands and children (what they look like) but I would never do that to her because I don't want to cross that boundary it would be wrong. I did get a vision of her kids with blonde hair and had to stop myself . I can't help it, it just hit me. She must have thought of them when I brought it up.
I am going to go I am tired... long day-bye
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