There was a lot at first but am I too negative probably so. I have been scarred from the inside out. I have had two people look at my blog since I wrote it and I don't keep up with it very well maybe I need to post more I guess. I am debating on writing a childrens book. I am thinking of something with butterflies since I have one tattooed on my arm it would be something spiritual. I would have to figure out about what though I am not sure. Butterflies become though and so it would have to be interesting for the unwanted people of the world. I never felt wanted in my life until I met my husband and had my kids.
My son was going to go to a camp for what we thought was two weeks and it was stressing us out ( me and my husband). He has to take his medicine for ADD and depression pills etc...so we thought it would be better for him to stay with the people that brought me up in high school . LMAO! That was a joke. They said NO! They said (now get this) ..these same people who NEVER let me leave their sight in high school or go ANYWHERE ... I just couldn't believe this but they said "let him go to camp" what a bunch of horse shit ! I heard my husband say to me "They said they would do things differently now." I don't believe that for one second. NOT FOR ONE SECOND. They were over protective baboons that made me paranoid that someone was going to kill or destroy my very being. I don't know these people and as for anyone else HA!
I guess I am screwed when it comes to "family" I don't have one except the one I prayed for. My mother is dead and gone which sucks and my dad ( birth father) is an asshole. I won't let him near my family as he acted like a turd the last time he came here. He even swatted my daughter's behind and asked her if she had a "crush on her brother "I don't know but that is grounds for removal of family. I guess I am flying solo if something happens to the one I prayed for. I will move to Germany or Belgium where my in-laws live but not stay where I am at now. I am not in TEXAS where they live but see God does do miracles ? lol. I dunno it is hard. In Is. 54 it talks about the maker being your husband and I like that if something happens to mine God will be my husband. I doubt very seriously I would find a man to put up with my moods and fiesty behaviour anyway.
We went couponing today and it was an interesting experience and I hated it at the same time. My husband and I left our son at home and took our daughter and I was so stressssseed out ! It was amazing we saved 54.10 between a card, coupons and discounts at the store. I dunno half the stuff they didn't have and it wasn't very organized. The way my husband had it organized made no sense to me and he didn't even buy cereal or stuff we needed. I have a mission when I go grocery shopping and when I go for $200 I can buy stuff for a month. I don't know what the heck he was thinking? I guess he was thinking like a man and I think like a woman. We didn't even buy meat and now we are flat broke. I am going to have to be really creative. Jesus help us all ! I don't know what we are going to do if we are going to have to get a cash advance or not but the plan he had in place didn't work. I let him plan it out and we bought lots of vegtables and then NO meat. I limit what I buy there and go for meat and frozen stuff. We have milk in the freezer I think but who the heck knows ? I am worried very much because we eat meat and the kids are not going to eat just vegtables and I have pasta with sauce and a little cheese but things JUST DID NOT GO WELL I dunno I guess I let him take over too much.
I hear my husband fussing for me to come to bed but I have to get this out. I don't want to let the sun go down without me getting some of this out and my dog is crying because we bought a kennel for "buddy" because they poop and pee all over the house and "bella" has a kidney infection so she has been having accidents I am going to have to clean the carpets in between school work. I dunno PLUS MY SON SAID THE DOGS WENT ON HIS BED UGH!!!!! I am so friggen stressed out. I have to finish school with the kids and get done. Susan is coming and I need about a weeks break and just to "chill" I am not doing school when she is here that is for sure. It takes up all my time and I have the fly lady plan in place. I am going outside to smoke after I finish this. I blessed some stones *(they were from the property though) and that is not good. I stuck them in the four corners and said a prayer. I don't know if it worked, I think I am going to have to go to the basement with one and close the portal. It is a drain by a window. That is where the sprits come in.
In closing I would like to tell you my HUSBAND had an experience with something. His office is in the haunted area of our home. Hell our whole house is that way so nevermind lol. Anyway, He heard a bzzzzzzzzzzzzz and kept hearing it and went on a search, it was a dremmel screwdriver without batteries in it uncharged in the linen closet. He was thinking of his GRANDFATHER and how he used to work with tools.
is that not weird. There is a life beyond this one I know it.
I also was at the hair salon and my 'abilities' are getting stronger. The owner whom I didn't know I could tell was sad. I talked to him briefly and he said he had some land and was trying to 'sell his house' he knew where he wanted to build and then I got flooded with information in my head. I saw a brunette man with brown eyes and tan skin and how sad he was that they broke up and how he missed him and how he had to move because of all the memories they shared there. I was sad for him I don't know... my abilities are getting stronger in a hurry. That is why this "thing" is in my house terrorizing me trying to scare me and freak me out.
God is gonna do something big in my life so this thing is trying to cause chaos by making my family argue and fuss and bicker and not get along . I understand that this battle is the LORD's but I am not lying down and taking it either. I love God .The Holy SPIRIT lies within all who cry out for it. Remember that . All you have to do is say God help me, and things will happen. He will come to your aide along with all and I mean all of His angels including the ARCH ANGELS like Micheal the one that kicks butt!
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