My best friend is coming TODAY and boy am I behind !

What is the deal ? I can't seem to get off my butt and do anything and work ugh .  That is my best friend who is coming guys ain't she something ? she is so pretty.... and she bakes the most beautiful cakes too. She is a dedicated baker cake decorater and makes the most elegant looking desserts.   I can't believe it that she will be here at 5 pm. I am so nervous, I am beside myself. I feel sick and nervous I need wine and wine and wine and cigarrettes. I am too nervous to function ugh. I am about to clean the bathroom in my room after I finish this post and then straighten my rooom up  and then go to the kitchen and start cooking and making bread and dessert. I don't know what I am making. I think I am going to have to make a cookies or cake or something.

I haven't seen her in years so I am going to have to clean up and look decent. I don't want to look like a bum either. My clothes are all too big too . Ugh !  I have lost about 50 lbs or more.  Anyway I need to go smoke and then I am going to go clean . bye for now. wish me luck gonna need it.