Well I Went Into The Hospital

The stress got to be too much, and I had to go. I was letting everything in the whole world get to me and so I needed to go. The ADD meds were aggravating my condition also and making me irritable and they took me off of them and so I am now free and clear of all stimulants but not focused. I am very forgetful but not irritable so I don't know which is better. I guess not being so darn mad.

I had to go when I went in I was ready to kick my neighbors ass and let me tell you that was NOT a good feeling. Yesterday she spoke to me about some papers in my driveway that I usually tell my son to p/u on trash day. She said to me " Do you mind if I pick up the trash in your yard it would make our neighborhood look just a little bit nicer ?", and I said Yes! On the way out of the drive way that day I had my son pick them up and gave her a wave and she waved back, at least I think she wasn't flipping me off and I was pleased with myself for not being so angry at her. I was afforded by my shrink to go to a 'home' if I didn't straighten out and stop letting my anger control me. I had to figure out what was more important in life. Anger or living and it is difficult to stop old habits. I know that much. I do know my family is more important though.

My kids rarely listen to my husband it is like they tune him out. I haven't figured that out yet. I don't know why. He doesn't interact with them though unless he is asking them to do something. He never colors with them or anything. He watches T.V. and plays computer and that is it. He is always doing technology and it is rare he is playing a game unless we are going to bring it to the bedroom. He is not active and he is depressed. He needs to see his doctor for depression. He won't listen to me though. I think his testerone is low or however you spell it. I am going to do a spell check lol ~ . He is down down down.

God help us all we struggle and barely make it and life is hard somehow every once and awhile something gives us a purple purpose and mine is my children.  I love them so darn much. They are my life and my breathe. I read my Bible yesterday it was good. Hard for me to concentrate. Doing full blown school Monday YAY !!!!