It is hard having kids sometimes I think I was ill equipped to deal with them. I wonder if I am going to have a heart attack ? I saw a physician a couple of months ago but he never even increased my choloesterol medicine he only gave me 50mcg of levothyroxin and I am on 150 and my hair is still falling out. He was a total ass. I probably wrote about him on here. When I threatened to contact my attorney because I had not heard from them with medicine or them contacting my pdoc they sent me a script for the fifty mcg of levo what a dork. ha ! I don't get him I went in there in a dress and nice shirt and he treated me like a criminal because I told him my history of abuse and I had tattoos. I am a home schooling mother and my husband saw how he treated me. He was the kind of doctor that was rude and a fuddy duddy. Not my fault I can't change him NOPE.
I need to see someone else and I will I am waiting until the week after next and I am going I have a call to Greenville I guess they see the need for my son to be seen thank God. He is acting out right after I brag on him to his pdoc ????? I don't get it. I walked my dogs this morning and they went in the house. I am going to have to crate them. I hate that, I really do it seems cruel. Buddy will go in his cage he is a dingaling . He just isn't smart I did bathe them today. Buddy had fleas two small ones and they were making him itchy, he was glad to get a bath I put Bella in there with him and he was less of a chicken. I used oatmeal shampoo from PetSmart and it helped her skin. They smell like cookies now lol. I want to eat them. I love my pets, when everyone else in the family lets me down they are there for me.
My therapist told me that I am so spiritual that I know there is more out there than what I see and that is what makes it hard for me, I get let down so easily. Especially by people in my family, they do it all the time. I expect so much more from them I wish I could be surprised by them but I never am, I expect them to anticipate my needs and they never do. Constintatly disappointed is what I am but I can't be that way, it isn't fair to them. I have to be fair, What human can anticipate another's needs ? NOT one. God is the only one that knows our needs and takes care of us. For me to put that pressure on my family is ungodly and not fair and I have to stop it. I am being immature this stems from my past of not having my needs met as a child by my parents. I have had an ephiphany or however you spell it and someone else can do my spelling cuz I am tired. I made doughnut holes for my family today and my husband loaded the dishwasher and said he didn't finish and I told him he did a good job. I made a butt load of dough nuts and yes butt load should be added to the dictionary. I cleaned my bedroom up one side and down the other and I am tired so I am taking a weekend vacation I may clean my daughters room. I am making tuna tonight and typing a test for my son on James Madison and someone named McCree I think.... open book tomorrow. Then on Wednesday we are going to compare the first Revivals vs. the Second revivals after the Revolutionary War.
This is what my Buddy looks like but he is brown with white spots. I got him from a lady here in SC. He had papers but I am not going to breed him although he is a hearty humper of sorts.Do you all see how ADD I am lol ? I went from talking about the Revolutionary War to my dog. What a ding bat ! I dunno that is my life. boing and so forth. Off the walls. I am supposed to go to the Foo Fighters on Nov 8th we will see, I pray I make it.Love to all.
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