I just found out my dog Dusty's heart murmur is worse

I am so incredibly sad, I just found out that my dog Dusty's heart murmur went from a two to a five in a matter of a couple of weeks.  I bawled my eyes out in the vet's office. He has to be put on meds and I have to bring him back every 3 weeks to be checked for fluid on his heart. I am so incredibly sad because I would be so broken without him. I dunno, I just love that little chihuahua so very much. He is a little light to me he makes me so very happy. He gives me kisses and is always happy to see me and just loves me unconditionally. I just don't get that much from anyone else. I always heard it from my papa " You can't trust people like you can your dog". I agree with that, just last night I was loving on my pooch when my hubbie was like "will you cut that out ?" .He gets so disagreeable if I try to play with Dusty in bed with him, it is like he is jealous or something its so dumb.

I can't blow belly farts on my husband and he doesn't like to be kissed a lot so I kiss my dog. I tell my dog how much I love him and how precious he is to me. He listens to me. My husband doesn't listen, he watches t.v. and lays there and gets irritated if I make too much noise. I don't care I am going to love on my dog even more NOW that I know he is sick and my spouse is going to just have to suck it up. I am going to make my dog's life on this earth as easy as possible because I don't know just HOW much time he has. He could go into cardiac arrest. Its funny this punky kid that I have written about in my blog before - joked about my dog dying from his heart murmur. I wonder if speaking that kind of shit made it happen if he wished for it and he made it happen.

I hate that kid. He is awful and he needs well I won't go there. I am not his parent and for that I AM GRATEFUL !  God does do miracles, all the time and Dusty can get better. I just don't see it happening. I could be wrong. I am going to try to do healing work on him though. I am going to try to beg God to work through my hands to help heal him. I don't want to loose my baby. You would think I was talking about one of my kids. It almost feels like it.

Anyway I guess thats all for now, I am emotionally exhausted and my feelings are hurt and the cleaning ladies wanna go smoke so I am getting off of here. I have posted all I can for now. later.