Well the turkey is in the oven

I have popped firecrackers with my son lol and watched him and my daughter ride their new scooters for today and now it is snowing. It is coming down hard and fast. I have cooked a lot today and am going to have a bath before dinner. I only have to make bisquits for dinner which will be nice I can't wait it is going to be a feast !  We are a happy little family even if it is just us. I just have to accept it. That is all, no matter what you know ?  I am just going to have to do it and suck it up. Not fitting in, but that is o.k. and I will survive. I have survived other things much worse and not being a part of that family is not a big deal to me or rather it doesn't have to be. I don't know why I got so worked up. I am very blessed to have a husband and two kids that love me so, I could be all alone without anyone like I used to be when I lived with them. That was way worse trying to fit into a family that didn't want me in the first place.

Those days are over and now I am here in another state another time and mentally better so I need to remain thankful and forget about things that are out of my control. I have had a nice time today and loved on Dusty and played with him and let him run around outside which he really enjoyed (he ran away) to my neighbors house .. and got too cold . He loves it outside though even in a sweater he freezes he just shivers so much, because he hardly has any fur.  I did a reading about his life and it didn't look good, it said the spiritual is more important than the physical. I am guessing that means sometimes you must just have to let go. You have to, I don't know really if he has to move on into the next realm then I guess I have to be o.k. with that. I don't want to loose him and it will hurt like hell but I will have to accept it and it hasn't happened yet so I will just love him until whatever happens.

I was supposed to bake a cake for the guys at the gas station I get my gas at but it is snowing and I had to use the oven for my turkey first. It was 16lbs and would have NEVER cooked if I didn't put it in this morning when I got up. I cook it low so it takes a long time. I finally turned it up though to cook it faster and brown it now the house smells yummy. I made macaroni and sweet potato casserole and making green beans and maybe I will make mashed potatos I dunno I am tired of making stuff I just think I'll make bisquits! I guess I will go for now. Thanks for reading my posts guys and gals, it really encouraging, more than you know.