I feel like I am dying inside

I got a new puppy but it's not the same. He is cute. I miss my Dusty. I am going to see my shrink tomorrow for a possible med change. I feel like total and complete shit. I hate my life and feel like I want to die. I hate everyone and everything and am so fucking depressed that nothing matters and  I am having problems with everyday tasks.  At this rate I will end up putting my son back in school if things don't start picking up. I am not doing well at all.
I don't want to go into the hospital but I will if it is unsafe. I just am going to see the doctor for now. Hopefully things can be corrected like that. I knocked on some neighbors houses because  they are in the Homeowners Association and they NEVER FUCKING CAME TO THE GOD  DAMN DOOR no one in my neighborhood gives a shit about anybody and NO ONE BELIEVES ME about Dusty. I am sick of this neighborhood and want to move ! They fucking suck ass. They are a bunch of snooty ass mother fuckers that are just too good for anybody and if you were laying dead in the street they would not come to your aid. The cops wouldn't do anything the sheriff wouldn't do anything the HOA won't answer the door and the lady who owns the dogs nor my neighbor believe me. I am Fucked ! I give up. I guess  someone is going to have to get attacked by the dogs and then someone will believe me. They after all are only on electric fence and that is ONLY good if the owner changes the battery. Those mongrel dogs are vicious and hateful and mean and malevolent and I will NEVER go near that cul-de-sac again. Nor will my kids.  I am sick with grief. My heart aches and I feel like a piece of me is missing all I could do today was cry that is all I did. I went to my friends house and what did I do there ? Cry.
I am going to the doctor tomorrow and getting help I am tired of crying nothing is going to bring Dusty back I am going to take a HOT bath and soak forever. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired no one cares . NO one, NO one believes me. It hurts and there isn't anything I can do about it. I just want to move . or die.