It was when I first got the news his heart murmur was worse and that night I grabbed him so tightly in bed that night and with my cpap mask on I told him "Dusty I love you SO MUCH" . I do even now.
I got a dog yesterday from someone that needed a home for her, she was going into the highway and her owner said she almost got hit by an 18 wheeler. She is sweet, no Dusty but sweet. I like her a lot and she comforts me a lot. I just played Dusty his song outside when I was smoking, I feel like when I am out there I can feel his spirit with me. It is funny, I heard him cry yesterday when I came out I heard him cry I really did but I believe in the supernatural. Most people don't even believe dogs have souls but they do or they wouldn't have personalties. That is what I think!
Anyway Bella is a chihuahua and Daschuand mix and cute as a button. She looks older than they said and looks like she has had puppies too. I think she is going to make a good family dog. She is potty trained and hasn't gone in the house yet and I am very pleased about that. She loves rawhides and I have plenty of those leftover from when I went shopping from Dusty. God I miss him but I am doing well processing my grief in spite of the pain which is deep.
I am going to be fine Dusty isn't suffering anymore which is the important thing and that is a blessing and even though it is selfish for me to wish he were here I would be jamming pills down his throat because he had to have them for his heart. He HATED that. Oh how he hated taking his meds, he loved his liver treats after but the meds he hated, they must have tasted terrible. God bless Dusty and may his soul rest in peace. We all miss him.
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