I went and he bumped up my pristiq to 100 mg so hopefully it will help. I cried all the way there and in the doctors office. I went to a couple of neighbors houses trying to get someone to listen to me today about what happened to Dusty . I am worried that someone will get attacked by those dogs. It has been on my conscience since it happened because the owner doesn't even believe me. I KNOW she threw him away in a black trash bag I can see her doing it. I have that ability. I can see it. It makes me ill. I am so sad and broken.
At the third house a man came to the door and answered it and told me his wife used to be involved in the Home Owner's Asso. so his wife is going to contact someone.
My ex-bff talked behind my back to her mom a bunch of crap and then told me she was tired of being a door mat and I don't treat people like door mat's so she can go fuck herself. I am a good person and treat people with respect I am grieving right now and haven't been able to live up to ANYONE's expectations not even my own. I am so messed up right now. I have had a hard time doing school and dishes and laundry and hopefully the change in the meds will perk me up pristiq helped me when I first started it.
I emailed my-ex bff and just told her I would have loved to be a fly one the wall when she was talking about me to see what she really thought about me. It hurt like hell she told me she did it. Said she was sorry then called me 'sis' ugh. barf. like I am supposed to accept that shit. WRONG ANSWER. I am tired of the monthly abuse when she gets her period the cursing and name calling the yelling the impatience the rudeness and I take topomax and am extremely forgetful and she doesn't understand plus she has made comments about wanting to sleep with my husband TOTALLY inappropriate. Needless to say my husband doesn't find her the least bit intersting. He isn't attracted to her AT ALL I can tell I think he is repulsed by her. He doesn't want to talk about her when I bring her up he gets mad. Anyway I told him how dedicated I was to him today and how much I loved him and how much he means to me and he is a good man. I brought up the fact that I thought my ex bff slept with my ex husband and how she wanted to with him and he was like I am not even interested and Why are you talking about this ? don't even go there. He doesn't like her. I am glad. He only has eyes for me thankfully. He adores only me.
That kind of dedication is hard to find in a man and I am grateful. I took my other pristiq maybe it will help I am going to lay down after I take a bath. I feel crappy but I took the little puppy on a leash on the front porch and listened to Foo Fighters (nothing depressing) and petted him. He just sat in my lap. We used Dusty's blue blanket and snuggled and he just sat there. It was great. I really think he is a special dog.
I am going to the next HOA meeting to see about doing away with invisible fences . They are only as reliable as their batteries which are only as reliable as thier owners. I don't trust them. I want to move out of this useless neighborhood God please let someone offer to buy our house for a LOT of money. That is my prayer.
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